Although examination is over, i feel so uneasy nowadays. Dun know wat class i will end up at next yr is making me sick. "Playing games" cant concentrate on it. During sleeping, cant get to sleep, it is such a pain.

Miss my medical appointment yesterday, nvm i dun care abt it anyway. Todae was really such a bored day. I woke up at abt 7.30, cant get to sleep and then went down for some basketball shooting. My shooting sux. I think i will be using 1 hand to shoot next time le. My left hand always shift the ball de, 1 hand is more accurate. Didn't really exactly do anything except sleep and eat, watch anime.

Had finally straighten out my thinking now. Sry to all the people who played basketball with me de people for flaring up. I was nt in a exactly gd mood that day also so sry. Had fell out with my CCA. After sitting down and watching them play the match then realized what the heck is the problem with my style. I always back off when i take the ball. Defensive type, nt a gd type and the others are attacker, take the ball then shoot le, easier to shoot at a nearer distance mah. I always hesitate before passing the ball or shooting it. Nt observing my surrounding close enough. Sort of. Nvm, i nt exactly in a gd mood now also. A lot of things had happened and i am feeling so terrible. Fell out with so many people but i didn;t regret falling out my CCA. I didn't do anything wrong. They were the one who were wrong. Okay i admit for falring up at basketball is my fault but CCA is totally nt my fault K. And this extra info for the others. Dun listen to the sec1 star. She is a bitch, i didn't call people to beat her up, i have already stop doing that long ago, so dun say i do it, hope u all will trust me especially wan ying. Didn't believe me.

Had a very bad day todae, i mean seriously bad day. In the morning, some idiots were scolding me stupid when she was in normal stream, i look down on her, nvm i use all my achievement to insult her and came this bitch who came and scold me EQ low, she better watch out loh, dare to scold me, nvr die before is it? That time framed me i haven't settle yet she wan create new trouble. Finally got back all our results. I cheked my results and got a shock. I got seriously bad. I am hopeless anyway so i dun care about my life le. Then afternoon went to look for the teachers and got some marks but results still like shit. Then after that, went to play basketball, play halfway quit le. Jun Hao u sux and i hope u see this. Who is the one that is fighting the ball with own team argh. It is Xi Hao not me. Then finally i change court, he come and block me again, dun scold me lah, tell him to fk off first lah. Kevin, i nvr like u all along so u better dun telling me to block some1 or something, if i dun wan u cant do anything. I blocked humans u all complain i snatch rebound u all also complain, oi be more resonable lah. Anyway i snatch ball still better than Xi Hao okay, that pig. Ta ma de, insult me. Then went home to tell my results. On their mouth, they say is okay. In front they give me such a black face, stop faking it, u dun like my results then say it loh. Dun nid fake, it makes me bu shuang also. Anyway from young, u all nvr like me also mah, all u know is the single digit lvl ranking siblings and u dun give a darn abt me cause i cant get the same results. U sux, i hate u. Juz wish one day no nid see u all, better send me to boys home or something better, definitly better then looking at your charcoal faces every day. I hate this world, and Xi Hao, u also watch out. Once i set a target, i won't change, i will fulfil my revenge one day easily. Anyway u are stupid for yr info. Ya loh, u so pro until cannot snatch my ball then jun hao they all gang up on me le lor. Say me as well better i dun play, u think u very pro meh. u nt even fit to talk to me. Anyway, my killing list had added a few more pages. And dun ever kao bei kao bu me, i will bu shuang and kao u de.

Todae feeling so stressed up now. Tomorrow going be the day i going back to be emo. Tomorrow is when i am going to get back all my results. I think i gt badly for a lot of the subjects. I am sure i am going to be put on probation for star le. Feeling so sad now. Maybe i juz work harder during the holiday but i really hopw i can get into 3-5 leh. It is my dream class leh. I work till this day juz to get into that class and all my sec4 seniors had high hopes in me, really dun wan disappoint them. I hate to disappoint them again. Juz wish that time could turn back again. Had a quarrel todae again and nvm nothing.

Seriously so sian now. Stuck at home with nothing to do. Hoping some1 who lives near me can ask us out for a game of basketball. Soldier front is getting so sian. And i rank up to different colour le. So long. Finding a team death game is so difficult. I sux at team battle and the others always get 0 exp de. But if team death i can get like 400-500+exp. So sick of life now, chek hui, we go out play basketball loh. but u nvr reply me when i msn u. it is soon going to rain now and my heart is in darkness.

Very bad temper in the morning already le. When wake up didn't really go out and exercise todae. I flared up and went to play soldier front AGAIN!!! This time i was really satisfied with myself. LOL i finally ranked up le. I private le, wondering how long it took the others but it took me like less than 24 hrs of playing. I realised i get better each time. Juz noticed that my method very different and caused me to be killed everytime. I like to chiong up to the enemy and shoot without caring anything. Lucky Alvin told me to get a new gun cause i was using a sniper which needed aiming and i get killed before i aim finish. So in the end with mhy remaining sp i went to get a sub machine gun, which turned out pretty good. But before buying the sub machine gun, i was using pistol which looks also cool but its fire power is very lousy. Actually was told to get a m4a1 but since i was short of sp i went to get a sub machine gun and luckily it turn out well and i ranked up so fast in my view.